Healing Changed My Tolerance for Chaos

There was a time when chaos felt like chemistry.

Inconsistency felt exciting.
Emotional unavailability felt mysterious.
Bare minimum effort felt romantic because at least it was something.

You called anxiety passion because you did not yet know peace could exist inside love.

Healing rearranges your nervous system.

Eventually, you stop confusing emotional instability for depth.

You stop chasing people who only know how to arrive halfway.
You stop romanticizing confusion.
You stop begging for clarity from people committed to misunderstanding you.

And suddenly, things that once felt normal start feeling unbearable.

The unanswered messages.
The mixed signals.
The emotional volatility.
The constant guessing.

Not because you became difficult.

Because your body finally learned what safety feels like.

Healing changes what your nervous system is willing to tolerate.
Peace feels unfamiliar when chaos raised you emotionally.