Chapter 5: Some Versions of Us Never Leave

Healing does not erase who Vera used to be. Some versions of ourselves remain quietly present forever, not to haunt us, but to remind us how hard we worked to survive.
For the versions of us that still linger.

Healing does not erase who Vera used to be. Some versions of ourselves remain quietly present forever, not to haunt us, but to remind us how hard we worked to survive.

There are truths Vera has carried for years without language. Alone in the quiet of lockdown, old grief, resentment, and loneliness begin surfacing in ways she can no longer ignore.

The world praises people who never stop moving. Vera once believed ambition would save her life. Now she wonders if she simply learned how to abandon herself productively.

Vera has spent years becoming dependable for everyone else. But when exhaustion begins following her into sleep, she starts questioning whether resilience and self-neglect have quietly become the same thing.

At thirty, Vera thought stability would finally feel comforting. But when the world slows down in 2020, silence begins exposing the exhaustion she spent years hiding beneath resilience and routine.